Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Horrid!

AAARRRGGHH!!!!!!!!!  I had such a frustrating appointment with my doctor yesterday that I want to cry, stomp my feet and hit something.  Basically I want to have a tantrum.  I went in yesterday for a cysts check and unfortunately it was still there although slightly smaller.  Dr. Moffitt offered two options:
1.        To go off all medications and wait for my next cycle then go in for a cyst check and if clear then proceed with treatment.
2.       To go on Aygestin (norethindrone acetate), a synthetic progestin,  for 30 days to prevent a cycle followed by a cyst check and then if clear start treatment immediately.
Dr. Moffitt recommended option two for me because off of medication my cycles are very irregular and can be anywhere from 20 days to over 55 days.  He also feels that this will better let us coordinate and time my next treatment.  It sounds reasonable and it is but I am so tired of waiting and being patient!  I am out of patience and so tired of waiting!  My frustration level is at an all time high – I had hoped that my last cycle I would have 3 – 6 follicles, followed by IUI, and hopefully a positive pregnancy test but instead I got a cyst, then I hoped the cyst would be gone and we could try the superovulation and IUI cycle again but the cysts isn’t gone and now I have to wait 30 days before I can do anything!
I was so upset yesterday that I didn’t want to work out and stayed home with Handsome to eat delicious braised boneless ribs with rice and watch some TV.  I went to bed early because I think my frustration was burning out my brain and maybe that’s why I was so cold too, the stress is starting to affect my body.  My husband was sweet enough to put my body pillow in the dryer and bring it to me so it was nice and toasty as I fell asleep.  Still in a pissy mood today because I don’t think a lot of people would accuse me of being patient and I am so upset with this delay.  Luckily we have an appointment with Dr. Moffitt on Friday so I can express my anger/frustration/distress/depression about this delay and maybe he will come up with some other ideas.

“There was a little girl who had a little curl
Right in the middle of her forehead;
When she was good, she was very, very good,
But when she was bad she was horrid.”

2 comments:

  1. thanks for sharing... i'm so sorry for the waiting game you are having to endure. i'm grateful that you have a tender man to walk with you through the shared pain and pray that kindness and mercy will be abundant for you both. love each other well and continue to build a marriage that a baby will enhance... you do that so well...

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  2. Andrea, I'm so glad you're sharing. So difficult to know what to say that will be a comfort to you during this time. But as Robyn says you and Dan are such a match made in heaven that come what may you guys will continue to be wonderfully happy together.
    Love the blog.
    Stay positive, I know it will happen for you two.

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