So I have some preliminary bad news. Today we went in for our 6 week ultrasound. I had no idea what to expect or what we would be looking for. Apparently at 6 weeks they are looking for the gestational sac, a dark circle/dot, surrounded by a thickened endometrium (white). While Dr. Johnson found some structures that could be the beginning of a gestational sac nothing was clear cut. They took more blood to see where my hCG levels are so they can determine if the pregnancy is abnormal or not as far along as they would like or if it has stopped. They will call me tonight with the results - until then I am still on the shots. I am almost numb and feel very depressed. My head is killing me. It seems like nothing ever comes easy for us. :(
I will update later when I hear back from the doctors.
So I have a horrible headache and I'm somewhat depressed so you will have to forgive the lack of nursery rhyme or faerie tale related post title or quote - maybe at another time I will change it. I just heard back from the doctor (it's after 7pm) and it was not good news. My hCG level has fallen to 5.5 so this was a biochemical pregnancy or very early miscarriage. This basically means that only the hormones showed I was pregnant but the pregnancy never really started. So going forward I will stop all hormone medications (will stay on higher thyroid medicine) and once I start my period I will go in for a blood test where they looking for a negative result. Once they get that negative test I will be on birth control for 30 days and then take another test. When they have two negative tests then they will transition me into a frozen cycle. Handsome and I will of course continue to think about it but right now we are both leaning towards transferring two embryos on the frozen cycle. I want to thank everyone who has sent me an email, txt or comment on my blog. Although it didn't happen this time for us I take comfort in all of you as my support system. ttyl